Milestone

In my household of cocoa pebbles, poptarts and Mazing bars, I have lost 50 lbs & 41+ inches ! That’s 2 dress sizes, although probably more but I’d refused to buy anything bigger than what I had, so who knows.

I do know that it feels good to climb up on top of hubby and not be afraid that I’m squishing him

What a beautiful weekend!

Well, at least here in Northern NH. We had such a nice weekend, welcoming in Fall. On Saturday morning, we attended our town’s annual Arts Show. It was a downright BRISK morning, temps starting out in the high 20’s when we got up. At that point, I decided I definitely wanted to start the morning off better and went back to bed and woke up hubby with a nice, sensual backrub and of course the resulting making love that has to follow I know, such a chore.

So THEN we went to the Arts Show and saw some really beautiful work. We meadered along our usual walking route and took some pictures (which blogger is being a *PITA* and won’t let me upload, so look to My Photo Blog for those).

On Sunday, we again started our day out the right way and I have to say, it’s just so NICE to be able to enjoy each other, rather than hurrying out of bed and dragging ass to the computer or whatever. We went to the farmer’s market, as is our summer tradition and hit the market and then came back home to spend the day doing all those not-so-fun things that makes a household run. We enjoyed a lil quickie in the kitchen while the kids were watching a tape and I have to say, I have a whole new appreciation for my calves LOL

So all in all, a gorgeous, FUN weekend! I feel for those in the southern parts of the US that are having nothing but shitty luck with those hurricanes, though.

The Final Cut

I love Robin Williams. I don’t think I’ve seen everything he’s done, but what I’ve seen, I’ve liked. His dramatic performances, his comedic performances. I just like HIM. That’s why I rented this movie, because he was on the cover.

Robin Williams’ character is a “cutter” or film editor in the unspecified future. The world now has these implants that parents can have implanted into their unborn child that will allow it to record the child’s life from birth to death. Everything they see and hear, you see and hear. When the person dies, the implant is removed and cutters edit the footage down into a “rememory” of the person for their funeral or service. The entire concept was intriguing.

It made me *gasp* THINK!

See it.

Ahhh

I’m feeling better. The moppiness that I’ve been feeling has been going on for a few weeks. When hubby finally asked the magic question of “What changed 3 weeks ago?”, I started thinking. One of the things was that I stopped walking virtually every night. I had been walking at least 2 miles every night. I went from that to 1 mile at a baby-timed stroll. So 2 nights ago, I asked if he wanted to go walking with me, and we did… but this time, we popped the baby in the stroller and walked at a brisker pace. Yesterday, I woke up feeling better. We even made love and it was nice! I got some housework done during the day as well. Then last night, we did it again (walked, that is) and today, after hubby left for work at 6:45, I washed the floors! lol

Yeah, I feel better. Now I’m not gonna be slacking off on my exercise anymore, dammit!

See, if I put it in print, maybe I’ll be reminded of it better. Yeah, sounds good anyways.

blankness

I’ve been feeling rather blank the last couple of weeks. I don’t know what’s going on with my body or my hormones, But I suspect it has something to do with it all. I haven’t been exercising or losing weight, either. I told hubby yesterday, I almost feel like I’m in a depression, though I don’t know why I would be. But I don’t feel strongly about anything, anyone.

It’s bizarre.

You’d think that having a man who dotes on you, 2 beautiful, strong, healthy children would be enough. Ugh. Instead, I’ve been focused on the “negatives” that shouldn’t be bothering me. Things like this blog, and the trying to soar blog, both of which have seemingly been ignored. Things like the restaurant where I’ve been holding my munch for 2 years is closing and they didn’t even bother to let anyone know. I had to find out through hearsay, even though I call there every month to make a reservation. A reservation that they screwed up last week.

We are having some problems within our group, too, so that makes for some troublesome thoughts. Then there’s the ENDLESS news from down south. It’s all that’s on the news, and I don’t even WATCH tv – but even online.

We went out on our 3rd date yesterday. He took me to brunch at a restaurant I’d just mentioned I’d like to check out last week. He’s become so attentive and perceptive! It’s a place I hadn’t been in about 15 years. It was a beautiful, sunny day and we sat out on the patio and listened to a live jazz quintet play. I misbehaved and splurged on some pasta *YUM* and oops, how did that garlic bread get in there? And I STILL lost a lb

Oh, and that’s been pissing me off too – I haven’t been able to get past this # but finally I have.

We also went walking last night, and that was very nice as well.

Saturday was spent grocery & other shopping and he bought me this really cute skirt – I NEVER buy skirts but this is this bright PINK and I liked it. 5 minutes later, we walked by a shoe store that was having a sale and I wound up with some bright PINK boots to go along with the skirt. LOL

Understand that I used to feel guilty just buying the name-brand shampoo that I use (Pantene) instead of the store-brand. LOL I just simply do NOT buy things for myself. And he sure as hell never used to. Now, it’s a whole new ballgame. A ballgame I’m still trying to get used to.

So see? I have nothing to be troubled about for the most part. But I almost feel like I’m numb, and not just physically, although THAT’S A major pain in the ass too. I’ve had this numbness in my arms, face, neck, etc. for nearly 3 years. The bitch doctor that I went to wouldn’t’ do anything because at the time, I was pregnant. She predicted, though, that it is probably 2 different discs that are herniated, which is what’s causing the numbness. She was SUPPOSED to send me for an MRI after I had had the baby. What happened when I went back to start investigating it? “Oh, I don’t think that’s necessary”, she says. Just some exercise should help.

Huh?

BITCH.

So yeah, I’m a numbass lol Then my health care coverage ran out (They truly only care about you if you’re pregnant) so that was that.

The doctor’s visit last week that I told you about went nowhere. They couldn’t tell me anything, and now I have to go for an ultrasound next week. I did mention that I have no healthcare, right? Grrrrrrrrr

Well, I guess that’s it for now. I don’t feel like I’ve accomplished anything by writing this, but hey, at least it’s a post.

this is why I love NH

don’t look now but…

I can’t believe it’s already started…

2nd Date

I went on a 2nd date with that guy I told you about. He brought me flowers again! We went out to dinner and then, later, I was treated to another lovely bubble bath! I definitely think I’ll go out with him again if he asks! *g*

grrr

So the problem with having sex 3 or 4 times a day, rather than a MONTH, is that those problems that can bother you 3-4 times a month are suddenly bothering you 3-4 times a day. Sigh. SO I’m off to the doctor’s (well, NP anyways) tomorrow because I’m trying to be a responsible adult and deal with my problems head on.

I’m NOT looking forward to this

Keep me in your thoughts, please.

Time to give

Donate money to the Hurricane Katrina Relief Effort

Donate goods to the Hurricane Katrina Relief Effort

Back in December, I found myself very grateful to not have cable television. It was the day after Christmas, and the world was in tremendous sorrow for the victims of the tsunami. I was grateful, because I could not stand to watch hours upon hours of coverage. I find myself grateful again, to still not have cable.

Living in a mountainous, rural area, we only get one station. The reception sucks, so most of the time, the tv remains unplugged. Just spending time on the internet and talking to friends, I hear about the devastation and feel helpless.

The only thing I can think to do is give what I am able to, both time, money and “goods” in the hope that it reaches someone truly in need. Not the bastards taking shots at ambulances. Not the bastards shooting police for trying to help.

Please, if you do donate, be sure it’s to a REPUTABLE charity, such as redcross.org, unitedway.com or salvationarmy.com . Don’t give money if they call you – those people won’t be calling. It’s the scammer dirtbag hoping to skim from you. Don’t give them that. Give to the big charities, the ones who really DO help.

To those who have people there, or are affected in some way, my heartfelt thoughts are with you. Truly.