another “I want” posting

Yes, I know… I want I want I want.

But when you’re a mom, you’re surrounded by other people’s wants all day long. “Mom, I want something to drink” .. “Mom, I want to play a game”.. Mom mom mom.

But as you readers might be able to attest to, I’m more than a mom. While being a mom is my #1 priority, I do need more. I need adult interactions, which is why I host a munch. It’s so I can get out at least once a month and talk to other adults. I even attend a party here and there that doesn’t require cupcakes.

So when I say “I want”, it’s because something is missing and I need to fulfill it or else, it will just sit there in the back of my mind, growing. Whether it’s “I want a whopper with fries” or “I want My Man Right Now”, if I don’t get it, I’m likely to get cranky.

So, after last week’s trip to the motel that rather fizzled for me anyways, I told hubby why I’d wanted it in the first place. I wanted one last night, not just of sex, but intimacy – that will last me through the next 4-6 weeks of abstinence. Something to recall and it’ll bring a smile to my face. And while our night in the motel was nice, having contractions whilst someone is giving you all sorts of southern oral attention, and all you can think about isn’t how good it feels, but rather what if your water breaks AT THE VERY MOMENT, it isn’t exactly conducive to a memorable evening of hot, sexy monkey love. (oh god, I can just see the search terms now)

So to reiterate, I WANT one of those nights – sans the contractions, door knocks and 4 trips to the bathroom to pee.

Yeah, I know – I’m REALLY asking for alot now lol

ok, so how about I change my tactics.

I can’t WAIT for…

My body to be my own. So when he runs his fingers over my skin, down over my breasts and to my stomach, I don’t IMMEDIATELY think “did he feel the baby move just then?” When his fingers continue to trail down between my legs, exploring and exciting, I don’t imagine a big gush of amniotic fluid greeting him. Hell, I can’t wait to be able to bend over, for all SORTS of reasons, but I really do miss being able to trail my tongue from his neck to the back of his knees and feel him tremble, listen to his moans and know it’s because of ME.