grumbles

So, the same crap I was experiencing last year with the numbness/loss of sensation has actually gotten worse – my dr. thinks it could be related to a low b-12 level, so I’m gonna try that.  But it’s really pissing me off – now is the time when my life is getting back on a somewhat even keel.  The baby is sleeping better, so therefore, so am I.  The breastfeeding thing has gotten better, so I’m not miserable or sore all the time.  The surgery sites have healed, so again, not sore. Soo what the hell.  When we do get together, apparently I don’t respond enough for him, so his attention span sort of wanes… it just bites.

I’m annoyed at my body, again. As usual, I suppose.  It’s so damned frustrating.   Hubby keeps insisting it’s his fault – he’s out of shape, or he’s lost his touch, etc.  He just doesn’t GET IT that it’s a physiological problem with me – which also causes an emotional thing with me… My head can’t work around it.

Have I mentioned This Sucks.

Big time.