Maturity

I suppose that after 12 years, it’s more than obvious that what may have been there once, a very long time ago is not there anymore with my ex-husband. But what I’ve come to realize in just the last few days is how little there ever really was, when I compare my relationship to my (now) hubby with what I recall I had with ex.

It just amazes me that I was ever attracted to him at all. LOL

Because now he … and I don’t mean this to sound mean, but he repulses me LOL Time just hasn’t been good to him (not that I’m saying in ANY way that it’s been good to me either), but it’s not just the physical changes. I guess it’s just really shown me how much better suited I am to my favorite ma’an (even with his challenging faults LOL) and how much I love him, perhaps because of those faults. Even after 12 years, his breath on my neck still gives me shivers. Even after 12 years, a single touch and I’m like jello. Maybe not ALL THE TIME – because of my own physical issues – but emotionally, I’m still so much more HIS than I ever was the other guy.

Maybe it’s a matter of maturity. I grew up with the other guy, and so for that time in my life, that was ok. But growing up with someone and growing old with someone are two totally different things, and I’m so very very glad that I got them in the right order. LOL

So for all my bitching and complaining about my hubby, I also have to say how much he still knocks my socks off in all the right ways (except when he’s pissing me off LOL)

Hey, can you tell the Zoloft is working? LOL

and on a totally separate note – can someone tell me what the hell would have been the attraction between Bill and Nicki on Big Love?? PLEASE? LOL

and this is the description for this week’s episode – can someone tell me when they started letting 4th graders write for them?

Rebuffed by Barb, Bill asks Margene to accompany him to a Bar Owner’s trade convention. But when how will Bill justify Margene presence when they run into a old acquantance there?